tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-81938356738426722542023-11-16T07:46:19.178-05:00HealthGirlIn The Pursuit of Health
**My Journey from Toxicity**Health Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14159193208877091323noreply@blogger.comBlogger247125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8193835673842672254.post-22990475385358201162009-06-01T18:03:00.002-04:002009-06-01T18:05:56.963-04:00NEW BLOGI've decided to do a new blog specifically for comp prep and fitness. This blog was originally intended for health, natural health, and general fitness. Its become a venting ground and my general updates and I'd rather it be a place for information and resources. <br />If you'd like to follow my fitness journey, come on over to <span style="font-weight:bold;"><a href="http://healthgirlscomp.blogspot.com/">HERE</a></span> . :D See ya there!Health Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14159193208877091323noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8193835673842672254.post-5003900572098676692009-05-31T07:08:00.003-04:002009-05-31T07:29:10.173-04:00HeadspaceFirst I want to say I'm sorry for not commenting on everyone else's blogs lately. :(<br /><br />I wish I was doing a positive blog. I just don't have it in me. I'm not in the best headspace. My energy levels have been absolute junk lately. I'm SO exhausted. Its stupid. My workouts are weak and I'm just wasted after doing them. I have had insane cravings- because I am tired. Add in some stupid work scheduling and an insane boss and well, what can a girl do? I'm trying to stay on track, but failing. I haven't been able to get to the dang grocery store for my food. I meant to last night but I was so tired I wanted a nap- and then I overslept. *dang* I feel fat and squishy. I hate this feeling. I liked feeling lean and strong. I'm so frustrated. I know what I need to do, but where is my spark? What happened? <br />I am absolutely miserable in my job. I feel so trapped. I feel like there is nothing I can do. No where to go. The job market here is terrible and I don't have the skills required for the jobs that are available. Going back to school isn't an option at this point. I NEED to keep my income, but the stress and overwhelming urge to run out of the door OR hurt somebody is getting to be too much. My boss makes my job miserable. There are enough trials and issues at my job to begin with. The company is making things a little crazy. I keep looking and looking for another way and I just can't find anything right now. Things were so bad yesterday I had 3 customers ask me what was wrong with my boss. Well... in psychology we call it neurotic and narcissistic. *sigh* <br />I've got to get my head back in the game. Hopefully talking to my trainer will at least help me get back into the fitness and comp prep game. I need that for my survival. <br />I'm a fighter. Some days I feel like lying down and giving up. I'm just so tired. That will change though. No one is going to keep me down. I'm not giving up. I'm taking a moment to restore my energy. Then... look out.Health Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14159193208877091323noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8193835673842672254.post-50423153342692783192009-05-27T05:54:00.003-04:002009-05-27T06:19:24.202-04:00Unload...Just call me Captain Grumpy. I have had less than 5 hours of sleep the last 2 nights and I've worked 2 10 hour days. I know for some people in other professions those days aren't that long. If I didn't have to deal with a certain person for the whole time it would be more bearable. The lack of sleep makes it that much harder to deal with him. I just can't handle the incessant blabbering of egotistical nonsense that gets spewed forth. Its topped with neurotic mind games where if you aren't him you can't win. You are and always will be wrong. *sigh* <br />I wish I was stronger and smarter, more skilled in something else. I wish I could get out of this situation. I honestly don't know what to do. I don't want to be in another high pressure sales situation. I like helping people. I don't have any kind of nursing or therapy skills. I wish I did because that is much more up my alley. I've wanted to go to massage therapy school for 6 years, but thought maybe I wouldn't be able to make money. Right now I hold our benefits and its a huge price break. I hate financial crap! I'm just not sure what to do or where to go. I'm feeling a bit paralyzed by this whole situation. I don't know how to get out of this in the current job market. Its hard to sell yourself when everyday you get told in some way that you aren't good enough. I have enough self-esteem issues, thanks. The boss knows how to beat people down. :(<br /><br />I'm a barrel of frustration this morning. My weight is up today. Why? I dunno- cause I'm a girl? I feel puffy. Maybe its the antihistamine. I feel like I can't win. No drugs, no breathe. Drugs mean water retention. *bah!* <br />I feel like I am chasing my trainer down. He has missed calls with me and I was supposed to have a new plan for today. He's really nice and knows what he is doing, but I HATE feeling like a nag. God, I HATE it. I know he's busy, but the missed calls and lack of communication have me feeling like he doesn't want to train me. Its just my lack self-esteem screwing with me I'm sure. I am on a tight, tight budget, so I need an exact plan so I can buy the right groceries. If he changes a bunch of stuff and I need to go buy more things it really messes things up. I'm down to the last day of meals. I need to go grocery shopping tomorrow. I guess another email is in order. *damn*<br /><br />You know its going to be rough when your horoscope tells you to "go ahead and have your meltdown". WTF? Its almost comical at this point. <br /><br />Okay, I think the unload is over. <br /><br />I've got to get some working out done. I'm praying for a good day. I need to have some awesome sales. Anyone need a netbook or mobile broadband (internet connection?) Heh. Yeah. <br /><br />Off to conquer the day. Its conquer or be conquered... I don't wanna lose...Health Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14159193208877091323noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8193835673842672254.post-35036357096248626202009-05-22T21:23:00.002-04:002009-05-22T21:34:50.277-04:00Genreal thoughtsI haven't really had much to blog about. I'm doing great on my plan. I got derailed for 2 days because of the stomach flu, but now I am back on target. Allergies have decided to kick my butt this year. The last couple days my workouts have been weak, but I'm getting through them. I'm getting anxious. I NEED to get some of this weight off faster. I know I need to be patient, but I just want to feel a little freer. Not so bogged down. I want to wear tank tops and feel decent not all gross and flabby. I don't really have much cardio to do yet, so I'm sure we'll see some more changes once that gets added in. I'm finding that now I want to do more social things than I usually do and that typically involves food and alcohol. I'm abstaining from participating for now. I know I can't handle it. I wish I could. I wish MORE that I was already at my goal and that I could afford a free meal without major consequences. I'll get there one day. For now its step by step, meal by meal and workout by workout. <br /><br />I really want to be in the 180's for my next progress report. Hopefully by the end of June I'll be in the 170's nearing 160's... It seems so far away. I wish I could weigh in the 160's NOW. I am so OVER being this fat. I can't wait to strut my stuff in my hot bikini and look back at this. I NEVER want to be here again. I'm done with it. I know with John's guidance and experience he'll get me there. I'm putting in the work. I deserve this.Health Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14159193208877091323noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8193835673842672254.post-49775246883070239962009-05-17T08:56:00.002-04:002009-05-17T09:05:00.754-04:00Still goin'Crushed the shoulder/leg workout today. My arms are all shaky. I can barely type. lol <br />I'm sweating like a freak and it feels great! My stomach was not too good last night and somewhat questionable this morning, but I think John's magic formula for kicking the flu worked. I should be back on track 100% today. I'm bummed I had to have the detour- I did check in with John for advise on what to eat, so I don't feel guilty, just bummed. I am hoping my progress isn't too derailed by this. I'm kicking up the intensity the next few days, so I should be okay. <br /><br />I'm so proud of my friends who competed yesterday. CONGRATS again!! :D<br /><br />I'm not sure if I can speed up the progress and be stage ready by October. I'll listen to John. He feels at this moment that 25 weeks was ideal. We'll just have to see how my body responds and how compliant I am. So long as I get no more of these nasty stomach issues, I should be okay. When my stomach goes wonky I get freaked out. I hate to eat at all and when I do its crap like crackers and graham crackers. I wonder why that is? Its bland and soaks up weird stomach juices? I dunno. I just know that I am very afraid to eat normal solid foods. Weird.<br /><br />I have to work today and tomorrow. I'm pretty happy with how I feel with the program so far. I can feel changes. I just wish pictures and measurements would catch up. My clothes are looser. C'mon body. We got some changing to do. <br /><br />Off to shower and work.Health Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14159193208877091323noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8193835673842672254.post-46513049340618325452009-05-14T09:49:00.003-04:002009-05-14T09:56:52.761-04:00This is what happens when I get sleep... Goals & The Path<span style="font-weight:bold;">"Know what you want to do, hold the thought firmly, and do every day what should be done, and every sunset will see you that much nearer the goal. "<br />-Elbert Hubbard<br /></span><br /><br />A huge part of being successful, especially at this game of weight loss, is having a direct goal. I've wandered aimlessly for a long time. I knew my general goals in life, but nothing specific. The goals I saw clearly I reached. The other part to seeing that goal clearly is doing what you have to do. No one ever promised the road would be roses and butterflies. Sure you'll see them along the way, but sometimes you have to go through the scary woods, crawl in a ditch and climb a mountain too. Each and every step you take that follows your plan will get you that much closer to your goal. Enjoy the journey. Don't judge the process. Just experience it and relate to it. Learn from each day. Keep the good and leave the rest. Keep moving forward. Its okay to enjoy the moment. Just don't get too lost in the butterflies and flowers that you lose your way.Health Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14159193208877091323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8193835673842672254.post-17123228606204303652009-05-13T18:04:00.000-04:002009-05-13T18:11:52.965-04:00just a quick ventI am in need of a vent. I hate this stupid job. The drama is ridiculous, the management is disorganized, self centered, over-emotional and chaotic. The wall to hurdle keeps getting higher and higher and the weights they put on us are heavier and heavier. The goals are unattainable. The expectations are unrealistic. Everyone is in an uproar. I'm tired. I'm frustrated. I'm so over this crap.Health Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14159193208877091323noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8193835673842672254.post-37292602663614898472009-05-12T05:11:00.002-04:002009-05-12T05:17:02.499-04:00FrustrationHave I ever mentioned how much I hate my job? :P I had my first day back yesterday and I wanted to just scream. Seriously. I was in tears last night. I have anxiety again this morning. I just need out. I need something more fun or at least not so hostile. I don't have a clue where to go or what to do. There isn't anything remotely decent around here. I'm trying to keep expenses down. The less travel I have to the better- it gives me more time to rest and workout. I will do what I need to though.<br /><br />My fire is a tiny flame. I was 100% yesterday. I'm happy with that. I just wish it wasn't so stinkin stressful at my job. I was super depressed yesterday and there were several moments I was jonesing for something bad to eat. I didn't do it though. :) I just wish I could do something different. <br /><br />Mojo come back... save me from myself...Health Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14159193208877091323noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8193835673842672254.post-88559395559545681072009-05-10T12:17:00.003-04:002009-05-10T12:37:57.636-04:00It's all in the mind...First, I want to say that my body is one big DOMS. LOL Seriously. I love it! (most of the time)<br /><br />So I did a little thinking while I was on the treadmill today. Reuniting with friends on facebook got me thinking about the past. I achieved everything I set out to do while I was in high school. After high school, I lost my vision- not physically, but I had no real goals or dreams. Everything was a big question mark. I had some small achievements along the way, but mostly I was a feather drifting along the stream. When I think about all the things I wanted and achieved in high school, I realize it had to do with my mindset. I really believed in what I was going after. I *KNEW* I could do it. There was never really much doubt. I have a few ideas of what went wrong along the way- why I stopped having goals, why my dreams were quieted. In the end, it was all in my mind. I let things change my state of mind.<br /><br />I am not going to fear failure anymore. I'm not going to let the world hurt me and keep from dreaming. I've done that for a long time now. I've been dealt some rough and painful hands, but that doesn't mean I have to quit playing this game called life. It only means there are more rounds to come and perhaps I need to try a new strategy or a new style. It was okay to pause and regroup, but not to sit down on the bench like that was the end. I'm not a bench warmer anymore.<br /><br />I pushed myself hard in my workout today. I wanted to give up at times, but I didn't. I kept pushing and proved to myself that even though it was hard, I could do it. I'm holding on to this fire! I'm holding on to this moment. I am capable of doing anything I put my mind to. Some things will take longer than others to achieve, but I can do this.<br /><br />Dreams <span style="font-weight:bold;">are</span> achievable. <br /><br />I'm still 100% and still on FIRE!Health Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14159193208877091323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8193835673842672254.post-60328459262352809832009-05-10T00:02:00.003-04:002009-05-10T00:10:50.788-04:00Reflection on my first big food hurdleOkay, so not my very first food hurdle, but the first big one while on this plan with this trainer. <br />Tonight was my first social situation where my food had to be different. It was taco night at the in-laws and there was booze galore, all the great taco fixings and lots of dessert. I was feeling okay about all of it really. I wasn't expecting the peer pressure! I got bombarded with not doing shots and not drinking wine. I got a few questions after I had my separate dinner set out, but finally everyone eased up. I even got a compliment for staying strong. I won't lie- while I love Mexican food, this wasn't that tempting. It was the mindlessness that started creeping in that almost caused me to grab a lick of frosting! I am becoming so much more aware of these little mindless habits. It makes me wonder how often I've done things like this without even realizing it. No wonder I got fat!<br /><br />I can say I feel fabulous without all the junk. I know I felt better after my portioned and balanced meal than anyone else did after the gigantic portions of garbage. Score one for snobbery. :P I really am proud. I fought off the "just one little X" demon. I feel victorious.Health Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14159193208877091323noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8193835673842672254.post-66001370876024703272009-05-08T13:47:00.002-04:002009-05-08T13:55:14.851-04:00General UpdateIts day 4 and I'm still 100%. :) I feel great. I get a little low on energy in the late afternoon but it could be the diet, workouts AND TOM. I'm down at least 5 lbs. I have rice on my diet for the next 3 days and I'm a little nervous. I am following the plan, but man... I am scurred that the carbs will stall me out. I know John knows what he is doing, so... I am eating as prescribed. <br /><br />My workout was killer today. Mama Mia! Tomorrow ought to be funny. At least I can walk better today. I love these workouts. I sweat like crazy, my heart rate is up and I feel my muscles burning. I'm hoping to make some serious progress. I might be able to do a show with Marissa if I do. :)<br /><br />I think its funny. I update my Facebook with things about working out. Everyone keeps messaging me asking why I workout so much. Today I got asked if I was doing a bodybuilding show or something. :P <br /><br />That's the general scoop. I feel great, my clothes are looser and the scale is being nice. Yay!Health Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14159193208877091323noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8193835673842672254.post-24083829615859474092009-05-05T16:53:00.003-04:002009-05-05T17:26:12.364-04:00Realizations and Observations1- I need a program. Being on a program requires that I am disciplined and FOLLOW IT. Having a trainer makes me accountable since I apparently don't value myself enough to stay accountable to me. One day I hope that I not only understand all this health and training stuff better, but I care and love myself enough to stay accountable to ME.<br /><br />2- I've sabotaged a lot of my hard efforts by adding in little things that I thought wouldn't hurt. Craisins = bad, mmmkay? I added them to oatmeal and salads. I'll miss you guys. Milk and cheese- yeah- a little bit here and a little there does add up. I'll miss you too.<br /><br />3- "Eye-balling" is a set-up for failure. Especially when hunger comes into play. I *MUST* measure. I can't trust myself to guess at ounces or TBSPs. Ever notice how a TBSP of Peanut Butter can get really big? LOL Seriously. Measuring is my life right now. My portion sizes were whacked!<br /><br />4- I know a lot about fitness and training. I do not know everything! I must follow my trainer's direction even if its something new to me. He knows more than I do.<br /><br />5- Having a trainer you can trust is paramount. Being in alignment with beliefs on health and training is so important. Trusting my trainer to provide a proper and healthy program allows me to follow it with no excuses. Following my trainer's direction in both workouts and nutrition is the key to getting the results I seek. I can trust him to tweak and change things as necessary. <br /><br /><br />I love being on vacation during this time. Day One and these are the observations I had time to make and digest. I am so happy I made this decision. <br /><br /><br /><a href="http://www.onstageimage.net/home.html">On Stage Image Services</a><br /><br /><a href="http://www.mylivesignature.com" target="_blank"><img src="http://signatures.mylivesignature.com/54487/152/9988D57887C5737A2DB205BB804D8873.png" style="border: 0 !important; background: transparent;"/></a>Health Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14159193208877091323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8193835673842672254.post-50142276353108476952009-05-03T21:02:00.002-04:002009-05-03T21:19:43.054-04:00Lazy DayToday was a lazy day for me. I was so wiped out from the last few days at work. I worked a 14 hour day and then a 10 hour day. *whew* I slept on and off for most of the day. It was wonderful. I really needed the rest. I'm so glad I am on vacation this week. I had some serious frustrations at work and it will be nice to be away for awhile. I am going to get some major cleaning down around the house. This will be my official spring cleaning. I'm purging the house of things I don't need anymore. I am putting a few things up for sale on Craigslist. I hope I can sell some things. It would be great to make some extra money right now. Since my employer is doing what they can to make it impossible to make our quoted money on commissions, any extra is good.<br /><br />I am pumped about starting with John tomorrow! I haven't felt this positive in awhile. I feel like I will be able to follow his program. I am committed to 100% compliance. He has tools in place to get me through struggles. I will call to be talked down if I need it, instead of calling for damage control. He hasn't said this, but I'm keeping this in my head- He's a skilled negotiator not a paramedic. :P I'm hoping I won't ever need to be talked down, but I'm realistic. I've struggled with food most of my life. If I hadn't, I wouldn't be where I am now. I'm counting on my commitment to my adherence goal. Of course I have the FABULOUS Co-divas/dudes and <a href="http://marissalf.blogspot.com/">SuperStar Marissa</a>, too. ;)<br /><br />I'm so excited about this week. I can do what I want and need to do. Some cleaning, gardening & yard work, some photography, maybe a short camping trip. Dang! Sounds like I need to be retired. ;)<br /><br />I have 25 weeks til my anniversary and Halloween. Its going to be an awesome day! I am hoping to make faster progress so I can do an earlier competition. We'll see how it goes, but I am giving this my all.<br /><br />Woooot!<br /><br /><a href="http://www.mylivesignature.com/" target="_blank"><img src="http://signatures.mylivesignature.com/54487/152/9988D57887C5737A2DB205BB804D8873.png" style="border: 0pt none ! important; background: transparent none repeat scroll 0% 0%; -moz-background-clip: -moz-initial; -moz-background-origin: -moz-initial; -moz-background-inline-policy: -moz-initial;" /></a>Health Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14159193208877091323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8193835673842672254.post-42289938079498039412009-04-30T13:28:00.004-04:002009-04-30T15:36:04.532-04:00Trainer?I am kicking butt and taking names today. ;) I did a nice bike workout today. 43 minutes of mostly steady state with some intervals thrown in. I also did some chest and shoulders. I love shoulders. :)<br /><br />I emailed John today. We shall see what happens from here. I am nervous. I'm so weird like that. I always get like this when I meet new people or have to make decisions. The bottom line is I *MUST* be able to trust him. I need to be able to contact him when I need help. I'm not high maintenance in this way at all. But if I reach out, then I really do need help. If I feel comfortable and I can trust him, I will do whatever he says without question. That alone will help me succeed more than ever. Its going to be tight financially, but I *need* this. I need it for me. If I don't make some serious improvements soon, its going to get bad. I know that I can make progress with a good program. I just need this direction right now. I have done so well this week eating clean and the scale has barely budged at all. I've done great in my workouts and still little progress. I'm calling on the top dawg to get me in shape. This is my last shot at an on-line trainer.<br /><br />***EDITED TO ADD***<br /><br />John is freaking AWESOME! I am totally confident now! We talked for an hour. He gave me sound explanations, he listened, he had great examples and he really made me feel I could trust in him and his wife. I am taking the dreaded before pictures and next week I will have a plan. *Gasp* YAY!Health Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14159193208877091323noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8193835673842672254.post-52993689422365323062009-04-29T07:49:00.003-04:002009-04-29T08:08:02.601-04:00Stress is just an obstacleI had a rough day yesterday mentally. It was super stressful at work. I'm getting to the point where I just want to walk away. Not the smartest idea, especially in this economy. I just think its total crap that I am forced to put up with a negative, hostile and abusive work environment because I get paid well and the economy is in the dump. To make matters worse, the laid off more people in Cleveland and when GM gets to its official cutting, our area is affected again for the 100th time. My company isn't laying off anyone yet, but they are weeding people out. It looks like they are cleaning house soon. I had my job threatened 5 times last night as my boss went off on a tirade about the state of our store. Well bossman if you had run the store properly without being a lunatic, perhaps we wouldn't have issues. I don't really believe him, but he's threatening to wipe out the entire store. Riiiiight. <br />I seriously just want out of this situation but I am stuck for now. I am working on some ideas, but right now I carry our benefits. If I walk, no health insurance. I just have to keep pressing on. <br /><br />I didn't mean to blabber on about that. The main thing was I didn't freak out and eat bad foods. I wanted to. But I made it through. This ear infection is kicking my butt. I was dizzy at work and I feel loopy this morning. I have congestion and my ears are still popping a lot. I'm still going to workout today. I'm done with my body breaking down every time I try to get it into a healthy place. It has to get healthy sooner or later. Since I am removing the toxins going in, I'm assuming the struggle now is the toxins leaving the body. <br /><br />Off I go to workout.Health Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14159193208877091323noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8193835673842672254.post-14233165275295201832009-04-28T08:29:00.003-04:002009-04-28T08:35:42.117-04:00Check InJust a quickie check in. Compliant AGAIN yesterday! Woot! I had to take this morning as a rest day. I may ride the bike tonight. My ears hurt and my foot hurt so bad. I am hoping it won't cause me issues at work. That's what happens when you run with too much weight on a bad foot. At least the scale is moving in the proper direction. I have been fighting some cravings the last few days, but I'm winning. I wanted ice cream yesterday but I said no. <br /><br />I know its clear to many of you out there, but... Diet is almost everything! The more I think about it, the more true it is. It just makes perfect sense. If I pollute and burden my body with toxic crap and too many calories, it doesn't matter what I do. It can't be outworked. I'm loving this new mindset. Why eat junk and waste more time and energy trying to undo what I ate? Its much easier to eat to fuel my body than to do damage control. <br /><br />Dear Food Addiction,<br />I'm winning.<br />Love,<br />MeHealth Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14159193208877091323noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8193835673842672254.post-12455155468216981012009-04-27T06:55:00.002-04:002009-04-27T07:08:45.930-04:0024 weeks?So I got up at 5:20 this morning to get my workout in, eat, and get ready for work. Ooops. I don't open today, I close! I planned to do my walk this evening, but this works out great. Its supposed to be near 90* today and I'm sure that 7pm won't bring much heat relief. I got a nice little sunburn yesterday so the cool breeze and early morning sun is much better. I am finishing my PWS and heading out to the park for a morning walk instead. :) <br /><br />I am disappointed that I let myself slip back to this point. One year of hard work and restrictions, blown out of the water in 3 months time. I'm frustrated because I essentially threw out a ton of money. Money on supplements and trainers. I threw out time. Time I could have spent doing a million other things. My body was going to gain some back no matter what I did with the hormone fiasco, but I didn't have the fight and drive anymore and I eventually caved. Many lessons learned. It wasn't all a waste. I met some fantastic people in person and on line. I am taking last year for what it was. This year I am planning to hold onto my progress. I have 27 weeks until my anniversary. 24 weeks until the NPC NATURAL NORTHERN USA. I'm going to shoot for bikini right now. I really can do whatever I set my mind to do. The trick is staying focused and committed for the entire duration. Can I do this? Can I stay focused and committed for 24 weeks? <br /><br />Okay, gotta run. Time to get my cardio in. ;)Health Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14159193208877091323noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8193835673842672254.post-21251552026382562322009-04-26T12:37:00.002-04:002009-04-26T12:46:42.552-04:00Its Good to Be Alive!Its a glorious day today! Here, the sun is shining, I got my walk in at the park and I just ate a delicious salad. Yummm. :) <br /><br />I have a lot of yard to work to do today. Its my first nice day off to do some yard clean up. I'll be busy today. It will cool off later in the week so I am taking advantage of all the nice sunshine and warmth I can. It gets me extra motivated and inspired. <br /><br />I did a lot of thinking on my walk. I came to the conclusion that my problem with... life... is that I am too rebellious. I am such a rebel and many times with out a cause. Its great when I am fighting for something worthwhile. You totally want me on your side. If you happen to be my body, well... apparently not so much. Between trust issues and rebelling. *Yeeeeessshhhh* No wonder I keep falling down. Add in a little ADD and I'm a hot mess. <br />I need to stop fighting everything, TRUST the trainer and/or program, and FOCUS. I might get hurt, but I could also see some real changes in my life. I'm making THIS year, MY year. <br /><br />I will WORK HARD AND SMART to achieve my dream body. I will dance and sing and live life again. I will sky dive in Hawaii. I will take my photography to the next level. I can and WILL do this. :)Health Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14159193208877091323noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8193835673842672254.post-35306224461692221612009-04-25T10:42:00.000-04:002009-04-25T10:49:46.838-04:00down but not out*ouch* I have managed to end up with a double ear infection. I am on some good stuff to fix me up. Yesterday was not 100% but I'm not sweating it. I'm 100% today so far and have every intention of keeping it that way. Fluids are key today. I'm not feeling so spiffy in the ears but my energy is amazingly good. Good clean foods and no toxins make for a great feeling. :)Health Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14159193208877091323noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8193835673842672254.post-87208246531838220812009-04-23T22:44:00.002-04:002009-04-23T23:00:57.488-04:00Oh yeah!Another day down, 100%! I'm so happy with how I did. I had several mentally and emotionally taxing moments. Several times I was ready to find some hot chocolate, but I knew food wouldn't solve anything. It would only give me a moment of relief and then my issues would be compounded with guilt. SO... anyway. <br /><br />I feel great! I am still hating my job and mostly my boss, but I am not letting him or my circumstances influence my food choices. <br /><br />I'm on a roll!Health Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14159193208877091323noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8193835673842672254.post-9398570305547139532009-04-23T09:43:00.003-04:002009-04-23T09:53:06.307-04:00Its a beautiful day out. Too bad I have to work. :( Oh well. Its gorgeous outside. I got a cardio session in and M1 devoured. I was STARVING this morning. I am chugging away at the water. 1 liter in. <br /><br />1 week , 3 days until a vacation. Not going anywhere special, but I won't be at work! :)<br /><br />Off to work!Health Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14159193208877091323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8193835673842672254.post-69788305320778538872009-04-22T21:58:00.002-04:002009-04-22T22:04:35.692-04:00Today... I WON!Today, I won. I was a winner. :)<br /><br />I ate right on plan. No extras! I was starving after work. That happens if I miss my late snack and then get out late, too. I wanted chocolate for some reason, but I didn't cave! I had some almonds and then made my big yummy salad! I had visions of all sorts of other food, but my salad was fantastic! I am now pleasantly filled after dinner. I love the feeling of success. :) I'm keeping this moment in my mind for other moments that will no doubt sneak up to tempt me. <br /><br />AND... The coolest thing of today... I saw not one, not two, but <span style="font-weight:bold;">THREE</span> Rainbows!!! Bright and bold, beautiful rainbows. WOWOWOWOWOW! I just love them so. They stop me dead in my tracks every time and make me pause. I take in their beauty and I just feel so at peace and so joyful. :) There's just something about rainbows that fill me with wonder and love. I truly feel grateful today.Health Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14159193208877091323noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8193835673842672254.post-19730737043583157252009-04-22T07:24:00.002-04:002009-04-22T07:38:34.377-04:00Day by Day<span style="font-weight:bold;">Poison Enemy # 1 - HFCS (High Fructose Corn Syrup)<br /></span><br />Its in EVERYthing! It took me over an hour to shop yesterday and people glared at me a few times. Screw them, I'm reading the freaking label! I do my best to stay out of the way. Anyway... I read so many labels yesterday and was amazed. Its no wonder our bodies get confused. We give it foreign material to deal with and expect everything to be okay. I love how Jillian compares us consuming chemicals and false foods. I'm paraphrasing here: Its like being in a foreign country where you never learn the language. You just make do with whatever comes your way and try to communicate the best you can by wild hand gestures. Isn't that hilarious? Its so true though. Our poor bodies just don't know what to do with some of the chemical messengers we ingest. <br /><br />I didn't purchase much that was in any kind of container. Just oatmeal and a gluten free muffin mix (hey the husband is slowly coming around to this all fresh approach). <br />I bought all organic veggies and some organic beans. I made a fabulously fresh chili. Good thing, too. Our furnace is broke. Brrrr. Its 60* in my house right now and 38* outside. I'm going to workout in a few so I won't notice it again until I cool off. <br /><br />I think I need to take pictures today. I need some accountability. I also want to show my starting point. I could look at last year I am sure. I'm trying not to beat myself up. I certainly have learned a lot along the way. I just wish I could be thinner and still have learned. I need to recalculate some goals and realign myself. This is a new way of life. Boxes are easier to prepare, but fresh is going to give me the energy I need to keep eating fresh. ;) <br /><br />Off to lift...Health Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14159193208877091323noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8193835673842672254.post-35941278878211560062009-04-21T10:17:00.003-04:002009-04-21T10:55:51.175-04:00Step by stepIts funny how things have come full circle for me. I am back to being a more discerning consumer. I am opening my eyes again to the poisons I consume. There are plenty of things that will be difficult to control. But what I can control I should and WILL. I wish I had the money to toss everything that has a negative impact and replace it immediately with the healthier alternative, but at this time I don't. Food and pure water are the first steps. Ultimately my make-up and hygiene products will go more natural as well. Cleaning products are somewhat there already, but I need to step it up and be more diligent. <br /><br />The last few weeks have brought me to this point, but most specifically I read information the last few days from various, unrelated sources that also point me back to natural. Jillian Michael's book has SO much good info! Jenny McCarthy is also a great point of reference. Her son is autistic and ultimately came around to a more natural way of living because of him. She needed to remove anything and everything she could that was chemical and unnatural. She also dropped gluten and dairy. She saw a huge improvement in his health and well being. She also managed to drop a lot of weight herself. She hit 200 lbs and is now back to being HOT! She does yoga and eats as purely as possible. <br /><br />SO... the two J.Ms (Jenny & Jillian) have impacted me. I know this a process and it will take time, but my body and life will be better for each small step. I am so excited and happy to be back at this place. I feel lighter already- and not from any weight change. I feel less burdened and worried. I have known all along that some of the things I was doing and consuming to lose weight weren't in alignment with my original feelings. I'm ditching chemicals and embracing mother nature! Its been said "If it doesn't grow from the ground or have a mother, you shouldn't eat it." Jillian is a fan of that statement. I personally cringe at the mother part, but at this place I am at I am choosing organic and well treated animal products. I am keeping them at minimum consumption.<br /><br />Today might include a trip to Trader Joe's. :) I love Trader Joe's. I haven't been there in a few years. :( Can't wait!Health Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14159193208877091323noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8193835673842672254.post-2453265185746462312009-04-20T07:36:00.002-04:002009-04-20T07:47:50.097-04:00UNDER CONSTRUCTIONI am re-vamping my blog a bit. :)<br /><br />I am going back to my roots friends. When I felt my healthiest and happiest I was doing certain things. All signs are pointing me back that way. I was silly to have left that method of living.<br /><br />I know Tina has blogged about it and Stacey has also made mention of Jillian Michaels' new book- <a href="http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/0307450732/ref=s9_sims_gw_s1_p14_i1?pf_rd_m=ATVPDKIKX0DER&pf_rd_s=center-2&pf_rd_r=1WK0Y9GZ4CYY4NCTYXCN&pf_rd_t=101&pf_rd_p=470938631&pf_rd_i=507846">Master Your Metabolism</a>. I decided to pick up a copy at Target. Amazon is cheaper, but I wanted it NOW. AND it was cheaper than Borders. :P Friends- get this book! Seriously.<br /><br />I used to buy organic foods. I used to use organic and natural cleaners. I used to avoid chemicals and "fake foods". I used to do a lot of things... In my quest for thinness I lost a lot of perspective. Sure, money had a lot to do with some of my choices, but in the end I was trying different things in desperation. <br /><br />I am revamping my blog and taking a different approach. I am going back to "my place". I am eliminating the junk. I simply cannot afford to live this unhealthy way anymore. I think you will see a new and refreshed side of me. I am feeling better now that I am back on HBC. I hope to one day eliminate that as well, but for now I must use it. My headaches are basically gone. I think the small one or two that I have had are from sinuses. I am SO less stressed now. :)<br /><br />I am running late for work now. Poo! Expect new and great things!! <br /><br />More later....Health Girlhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/14159193208877091323noreply@blogger.com3