Just filling up some space here so that my competing friends who may be in a moment of weakness don't read the food porn words that will follow. lalalala :D
So I am starting a new program on Monday. Of course my "old brain" yells- "OMG! We gotta eat all the bad stuff now since we'll be deprived until April! EAT!!!" I have been 50-75% clean eating the last 3 days. I had my Ben & Jerry's Americone Dream. It just wasn't as good. The first few bites were great and then I was just over it. Pizza is always my weakness, but having a salad first filled me up and after a slice I was over it. I typically love Chinese food. I love spices and Hunan Chicken is a tasty treat- I had that last night and well... I'm over it. My "new brain" MUST be taking over because I just haven't enjoyed those foods much and I can't wait to start eating clean again. I don't like the physical effects of eating junk. I can really tell when things aren't right. Who'd a thunk it??? LOL
I am getting REALLY REALLY pumped. I am now having dreams about competitions. I am really SEEING myself getting ready and overcoming obstacles. I am surprised at my determination. I really want this. I WILL be ready and on stage looking for a trophy in April. I'm sure I'll have to work hard and fight some old mindsets that tell me I am weak and I should just settle for X instead of getting A. As of right now this isn't the issue. :) I'm seeing it, I'm believing it. I am going for it! I already have people telling me not to get too "manly" or too buff. I guess soft & squishy is more comfortable for everyone else. Well... I've been soft & squishy for too long! I'm OVER IT! I have asked my coworkers to come support me in April and to support me during my training. I told them if they see me with ANY bad foods they need to slap it out of my hands and yell "Competition". :D Its funny how asking people to help me and support me has changed their attitude. Now they are involved in some way and they seem less resistant. I'm sure once I start looking "too hard or too manly" they will try to feed me junk, but for now the holidays should be a little easier.
Off to the place that interrupts my training... aka my job.
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What program? Are you still working with Tony? You were working with Tony, weren't you? What's the Program? 'Fess up!
Hey Liimu. :)
Well, I was working with Tony. I posted a while back that I had to make a decision to stop training with Tony. Its been almost 2 months now. There is a long story, but the main point is that I think things work out they way they are meant to. Tony was great, but ultimately not for me. I don't want to say much because I don't want to cause any weird feelings. Its just one of those things where things weren't optimal. I hope that doesn't sound negative.
I am now training with Julie Lohre. I have wanted to train with her for some time (well before T, actually). She is only a few hours away and I really like that I can meet with her. After meeting her at the Kentucky Muscle show, I felt that perfect connection and knew that I had to make things work. She was accepting new clients and well... I had to seize the moment. :)
So..... there is my confession? LOL
:)
Well, I'm happy for you. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that you will find YOU and uncover that beautiful, sexy, gorgeous girl you've been looking for all this time. She's in there, I can see her! I'll still be here following your progress!
Evelyne- Thanks. I appreciate your support! I didn't want things to be weird since I stopped training with Tony. We're all on a journey and I support everyone on their journey. :)
Hey!!! Im so excited for you!!! You are going to do great!!!
Dont worry about the whole Tony thing....you have to do what is best for you! Julie is amazing! Tracey loves her! I cant wait to see you up there! You deserve it!!! Dont give up on your dream!!!
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