Not everyone gets to hear those words ring in their ears. I get to.
This is why I love going to the doctor's. *sigh* This congestion, coughing and wheezing got to me so I sucked it up and went to the doctor's today. I got all that fun stuff taken care of- I guess I have asthma issues and my lungs sound terrible and are spasming. Okay... I guess I didn't notice my lungs spasming, but if its impeding my breathing then let's fix it. I got some antibiotics and a shot in the butt. *OUCH* I have a feeling I'm going to be sore.
Anyway... after we took care of the primary reason for my going to the doc's in the first place, I asked if he could give me a referral for a DEXA scan for body composition. They offer the body comp scans, but a referral is still required. First my doctor looks at me and asks why I want one. (ummm, duh? I want to know my body composition?) I tell him why and then he looks at my chart where they apparently calculate BMI's. I know BMI's aren't 100% but they work for the majority as decent indicators. He looks at my BMI and blurts out "You are basically obese. Okay get the scan and then put the results on your refrigerator as a wake up call." Then he walks out of the room. ?????????????? Okay so I sit there dazed for a minute and he sticks his head back in the room and says "Oh, if you don't lose weight by January, see me. I will give you Miridia. Its an old anti-depressant that was designed for weight loss. Its not a stimulant but it will jump start you."
I'm not going to let this ruin me. I wanted to tell him to look at my chart- he'd see that I have lost 25lbs this year. Its not like I am sitting on my butt eating Twinkies. (for the record I think Twinkies are gross.) I have had to work hard to get where I am. Its not great I know, but its certainly an improvement. Thanks for the encouragement doc. *sigh* I'm going to use this as more fuel. It stings. I won't lie. It feels like I am trying to fight my own ugly inner voice and then some outside ugly voice chimes in. If I weren't working with Julie right now I think I might be in a different place. I would be crying and eating some crap food. Instead I am going to keep looking at my inspiration picture and I'll keep repeating "Hillary, You Can Do This".
Tomorrow morning I have my DEXA scan. I am hoping its not too bad. I know its not good and I'm guessing I am still somewhere in the 30% range of fat. I am just hoping its not in the 40 or 50% range. After all the work I have done this year, that might make me cry.
For those who have tagged me- I promise I'll do a new post soon.
One word that will define my whole year
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5 comments:
GET A NEW DOC! That's what I say! Those BMI charts are hoo-ey! I'm at my absolute fittest at 150, and unless I'm 150 or below, I'm also considered overweight or obese. For the record, they just DO NOT WORK for everyone, any more than those stupid height/weight charts they used when we were kids did.
I went to see my doctor last year for a physical, and I was at least 15 pounds heavier than I am now. But my blood pressure was excellent, I had just run a half marathon, my eyes, ears, and everything else were great. You know what he said to me? He said,
"I'd rather see someone with your blood pressure, activity level, and everything else who could stand to lose 20 lbs than see someone who is in the appropriate weight range but eats crap and doesn't get off their duff all day. If you want to lose weight for aesthetic reasons, go right ahead. But you are very, very healthy."
Now THAT'S a good doctor! (In my humble opinion...)
:) Thanks. Sounds like you have a good doc! Its so hard to find a good one.
My blood pressure is great. When I'm not sick other things work. lol I know its not ALL about the fat, but it kinda still is. It puts me at a higher risk for diabetes. The hubby is pretty mad right now. I'm not even mad. I'm just a little disappointed. Its just another mountain. I can sit on one side and cry or I can climb up it or dig through it or whatever. I just can't let it act as an anchor. On the plus side- Once I do reach my goals I can say "I was basically obese and look where I am now." So.... there's my silver lining.
You are 25 pounds lighter than you were! You are doing great! Don't let those words stay stuck in your head. You are gorgeous, and getting gorgeous-er every day!
Wow. What an insensitive and insulting thing to say. It also proves that he's not paying attention to the chart. Sounds as if he's the one who needs a wake-up call.
It's not my business, but I think it would be great if you called him on this.
Hey, I found your blog through Tracy.
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