General Update

So I last week I was at the same weight I was last May. Its completely heart wrenching. I can't say its all my hormones' fault. I have certainly given in to eating junk. In the last month I gained 10lbs. I am frustrated. I have been working out everyday still, but the eating has just fallen. Work is still insane and eating every 2-3 hours seems as easy as climbing Mt. Everest. Its a stupid obstacle I have yet to overcome. I am bringing the Magic Bullet to work tomorrow. Hopefully that will help. The biggest thing is getting a few moments to sneak back and eat.

I am back to having daily migraines. I'm really upset about this. The Magnesium isn't really helping yet and I can't take any birth control/hormones until after my blood work in April. I am praying I will make it. My work is less than understanding and I have high quotas to meet. I need to get this straightened out as soon as possible. I have a pretty high pain tolerance and sometimes it just gets to me where I can't function. I had a break earlier today where I the headache seemed to disappear. Its coming back and I can feel its going to go south. I need to get to bed soon. I am supposed to have an interview tomorrow for a promotion. I am doubtful I will get the position. I think they already have their decision made. I figure its worth a shot though. At worst its an opportunity to practice my interviewing skills. Who knows, another position may open up somewhere else. I hope this headache is gone. I can't focus well when my head is like this.

Nosebleeds- I found out these can come from hormonal imbalances, too. Great. It seems like my body is just whacked. I *HAVE* to get 100% compliant with my program. No more deviation. I have to get myself healthy on the inside- and FAST!

I am so frustrated that I have gone backwards. I am determined to lose some of this weight this week. I had to put my fat pants back on. :( I want my smaller pants back! My goal is to lose 10+ lbs this month. I think its doable. I just need to stick to my plan and work hard. If I can't drop the weight eating healthy and clean and working out hard, then I don't know where to go from here.

No more playing around. Its game time!