Thursday, March 5, 2009

Ah, Hormones...

This week has been crazy! I haven't had much computer time. I've been dealing with more migraines. *boo* (Lori- any more no-migraine dances? haha) I've not been 100%. I had some really dumb moments. I brought the base and blade to work for my magic bullet and forgot the top! *duh* Then I remembered the top and forgot the base. Seriously? My head has not been with it. It seems like my nose bleed correlate with the hormone swings and headaches. I haven't been 100% on eating- but that is mostly missed meals, not bad food. I had a few tastes but I counted them in the 10% I am allowed. SO... that being said... I know I am PMSing and retaining water like a camel. I've been SO moody today. Its been horrible. I can see myself being irrational and weird. The poor hubby. He's just trying to make me happy. I hate this. I don't feel like myself at all. I am feeling huge and my jeans that used to be baggy are tight. *cry* I am working out everyday. My muscles are stronger and harder. I can feel it. I just can't get this damn fat off! I want chocolate and peanut butter and macaroni & cheese and baked potato soup.... I'm swinging all over in the cravings department. My head is throbbing again. :( Gah! April 1st can't come soon enough. I might weigh an extra 30lbs by then. *ugh* I've been diligent in taking my multi-vitamins, calcium, Vitamin D, EFA's and Magnesium. The timing is right for each of them. For the love of all things, I hope this doctor can help me. I'll take meds. I give up. I'll take medication if I have to. I just can't live like this. I feel like a monster.

Sorry this is so crappy of an entry. I'll swing in a happy mood eventually. I just had to get this out of my head. I'm not quitting. I'm still going to exercise and eat clean. I can only imagine my state of being without it.

Gotta Keep On Keepin' On.


Lori said...

Keep on girl, definately keep on! I've been wondering how you have been as when you don't post, it's not usually a good sign... :(

We're already into March, so April is just around the corner. Everything will get figured out.

You can do it!

Jessica said...

Hey girl...just read through your last three posts and thought I would comment here on all three. I am sorry about the nosebleeds and headaches and I can tell you from my recent pregnancy experience that hormones can definitely cause these things. BIG TIME! I started getting nosebleeds when I first got preggers - and I never get them. I am so paranoid that at the gym if my nose starts to run I automatically think its blood. Nice huh?

We are all here for you and sending you our thoughts, loves and hugs! Hang in there and know that this too shall pass.

Health Girl said...

Thanks Girls! You are awesome. I SOOOO appreciate your comments and support.

Jess- I am with you on the nosebleeds. I am always paranoid at work. I had NO idea that hormones would effect my nose! I NEVER had a nose bleed in my life. So yeah... love hormones. :P Glad everything is going so well with you! :D