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Sunday, November 16, 2008

I'm over it! (Food Porn discussion & more - SKIP if you need to!)

Just filling up some space here so that my competing friends who may be in a moment of weakness don't read the food porn words that will follow. lalalala :D


So I am starting a new program on Monday. Of course my "old brain" yells- "OMG! We gotta eat all the bad stuff now since we'll be deprived until April! EAT!!!" I have been 50-75% clean eating the last 3 days. I had my Ben & Jerry's Americone Dream. It just wasn't as good. The first few bites were great and then I was just over it. Pizza is always my weakness, but having a salad first filled me up and after a slice I was over it. I typically love Chinese food. I love spices and Hunan Chicken is a tasty treat- I had that last night and well... I'm over it. My "new brain" MUST be taking over because I just haven't enjoyed those foods much and I can't wait to start eating clean again. I don't like the physical effects of eating junk. I can really tell when things aren't right. Who'd a thunk it??? LOL

I am getting REALLY REALLY pumped. I am now having dreams about competitions. I am really SEEING myself getting ready and overcoming obstacles. I am surprised at my determination. I really want this. I WILL be ready and on stage looking for a trophy in April. I'm sure I'll have to work hard and fight some old mindsets that tell me I am weak and I should just settle for X instead of getting A. As of right now this isn't the issue. :) I'm seeing it, I'm believing it. I am going for it! I already have people telling me not to get too "manly" or too buff. I guess soft & squishy is more comfortable for everyone else. Well... I've been soft & squishy for too long! I'm OVER IT! I have asked my coworkers to come support me in April and to support me during my training. I told them if they see me with ANY bad foods they need to slap it out of my hands and yell "Competition". :D Its funny how asking people to help me and support me has changed their attitude. Now they are involved in some way and they seem less resistant. I'm sure once I start looking "too hard or too manly" they will try to feed me junk, but for now the holidays should be a little easier.

Off to the place that interrupts my training... aka my job.

5 comments:

Liimu said...

What program? Are you still working with Tony? You were working with Tony, weren't you? What's the Program? 'Fess up!

Health Girl said...

Hey Liimu. :)

Well, I was working with Tony. I posted a while back that I had to make a decision to stop training with Tony. Its been almost 2 months now. There is a long story, but the main point is that I think things work out they way they are meant to. Tony was great, but ultimately not for me. I don't want to say much because I don't want to cause any weird feelings. Its just one of those things where things weren't optimal. I hope that doesn't sound negative.

I am now training with Julie Lohre. I have wanted to train with her for some time (well before T, actually). She is only a few hours away and I really like that I can meet with her. After meeting her at the Kentucky Muscle show, I felt that perfect connection and knew that I had to make things work. She was accepting new clients and well... I had to seize the moment. :)

So..... there is my confession? LOL

:)

Evelyne said...

Well, I'm happy for you. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that you will find YOU and uncover that beautiful, sexy, gorgeous girl you've been looking for all this time. She's in there, I can see her! I'll still be here following your progress!

Health Girl said...

Evelyne- Thanks. I appreciate your support! I didn't want things to be weird since I stopped training with Tony. We're all on a journey and I support everyone on their journey. :)

Angela said...

Hey!!! Im so excited for you!!! You are going to do great!!!

Dont worry about the whole Tony thing....you have to do what is best for you! Julie is amazing! Tracey loves her! I cant wait to see you up there! You deserve it!!! Dont give up on your dream!!!