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Monday, February 2, 2009

Trying to avoid having one of THOSE days...

What the hell??? I woke up PISSED OFF at the world. I don't get it. I'm a real cranky biatch right now. I'm sure its some combo of hormones and whatever. Oh and I managed to gain 7 lbs in two days. Really? Well why don't I just go eat pizza and candy and whatever crap I want. I'm already WAYYYY off target. I should be losing not gaining. My clothes fit like shit. I feel like shit. I am freaking out. I am sooo hungry all the time. Nothing is effing helping. My lower abdomen is SO frickin puffed out. Its been getting bigger and bigger everyday despite clean eating. I have had hot chocolate, some Chex mix and an ice cream sandwich in the last 3 days. Not proud, but is that 7 lbs worth of calories??? Hell no! 24,500 extra calories had to be consumed. Uh.... definitely not. Even if I pigged out on pizza.... grrrrr. I have had low carb yogurt to help with my sugar cravings and I have actually eaten 5-6 times, but the calories are not that bad. I feel like starving myself. I swear. I know its not healthy. I am having a HUGE battle in my mind. I just hate this so much. I'm fighting to not spin out of control.

Waking up pissed off and 5lbs heavier than the day before is NOT the way I planned this. I am supposed to go to yoga tonight and quite frankly I don't want to go ANYWHERE. Not even work. Hell, I don't even want to be awake today. This blows.

6 comments:

Conni said...

Hillary, hang in there. Those days SUCK ASS when you wake up feeling that way! Eat clean!!!! The bad food will only piss you off more!


(((((HUGS)))))

mikeyrosie000 said...

Hillary Calm Down..You are doing fine.

It is not unusual to gain huge amounts of weight after eatting some cheats...not to worry..it is only water...you have nothing to worry about it will begone in a couple days. This always happens to me..I took a free day on Sat and weighed myself Sunday and was 9lbs heavier..My trainer laughed at me and said it's ok it will be gone..even if you managed to eat 20 lbs of food (which in reality..Yah Right) you body will not absorb everything from those 20 lbs it is impossible. What you are experiencing is just your body not being used to sugars, salt ect and it is holding on to it cause it is think boy I remember these I never get them so I will just hold on to it as long as possible...hence the water weight and such for days after...Don't worry it will let go of it soon...Just hang in there.

Tina said...

Awe girl...just put on the baggy clothes forget about how you feel today, and know that if you do something about it you'll feel better soon!!! I have these days...even today and I'm four weeks out form the National stage...it's normal...and NO More Crap food ;)

Liimu said...

Drink water! LOTS of water! Flush that crap right outta your system. And while you're at it, flush the attitude with it. Come on! Stop with the negative talk. You're doing great! Pick your ass up and keep on going!!!

Evelyne said...

See, THIS is why I stay away from the scale!!! Stop weighing yourself everyday, ONLY weigh every week or better yet, every OTHER week. Weighing everyday makes you crazy! As women our body fluctuates so much, with water, hormones, etc. that our weight goes up and down like a roller coaster. I understand how you're feeling. I have days when I wake up hating the entire world too. Just get through the day, eat as clean as you can, get some form of exercise in and go to bed thinking happy thoughts so you can start tomorrow off better.

Hugs and kisses girl!

Health Girl said...

You gals are the best! Thanks for supporting me on a day that I just felt like the biggest cow ever. :)

I really appreciate it!!

And I know, I know.... good greif I'm just a scale junkie. I only weigh 1x a day tho... lol